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goodbye ?
Well , I'm still afraid .Hello all .
Just came back from school , gotten report book .
English : 58.1 C5
Chinese : 65 B3
A-math : 61.4 B4
E-math : 73.3 A2
Chem/Bio : 62.6 B4
Lit : 42.2 E8
F&N : 69.9 B3
Class : 13/40
Level : 62/160
Idiot , why can't you just gimme 0.1 more marks so I can get A2 for F&N ?!
Someone asked me if I'm jealous .
Someone asked me if I still care .
Someone asked me if I've given up .
No , no , yes .
That's what I said .
But my heart ?
Many tell me things about you which I had observed myself ,
many gave their opinion of you , which I share .
& a few told me he's better than you .
But yeah , I'm still afraid .
Because when the whole world thinks I let you down ,
I know I didn't .
& when the whole world thinks I betrayed you ,
I know they only got half of what I wanted them to believe in .
Only I know the truth .
But it doesn't matter anymore .
Because this is what I told my friend ,
"No point even if I were to tell you now that I had everyone fooled ."
“I used to think I was the strangest person in the world but then I thought there are so many people in the world, there must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do. I would imagine her, and imagine that she must be out there thinking of me too. Well, I hope that if you are out there and read this and know that, yes, it's true I'm here, and I'm just as strange as you.”
“This is how you do it: you sit down at the keyboard and you put one word after another until it's done. It's that easy, and that hard.”