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They say you don't know what you have till it's gone. Truth is, you do know. You just didn't know you would lose it. & what if I told you that you take up the most space in my brain? & how scare I feel because one day, all these will end eventually. I'd wait here for life just to see you smile. At me. I know I'm not your everything. I just hope I'm something to you. I miss the silly chats. The simplest things like hugs. Haha, I tried so hard to forget everything. I thought it worked. Finally. My bad. Y'know sometimes I still sit down there, thinking of us. Lie on my bed, making up scenes. Like always. & then suddenly, I'll tear. Don't ask me why. Don't even wonder. Isn't it obvious enough? I tried all means to pretend I was happy. Sadly, it didn't work. I tried so hard. Now I'm way better. But what about the memories, pain, scars etc. All kept inside. Somewhere it can never be replaced. Ever.
Well it's true they say, 'Don't be upset because it ended. Be happy because it happened.' Okay, finally, I can understand what this quote was supposed to mean. If it didn't happen, I wouldn't have grown. I wouldn't have such wonderful memories to accompany my loneliness. When I'm all alone, that is.
Memories, is something you can't forget. Even if you trash it away, it remains. No matter what. Unless, it meant nothing at all.
This goes out to, someone who doesn't even know this side of me ;) bye.
“I used to think I was the strangest person in the world but then I thought there are so many people in the world, there must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do. I would imagine her, and imagine that she must be out there thinking of me too. Well, I hope that if you are out there and read this and know that, yes, it's true I'm here, and I'm just as strange as you.”
“This is how you do it: you sit down at the keyboard and you put one word after another until it's done. It's that easy, and that hard.”