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02 March 2014
5.55AM
I don't even want to go on about what just happened within the last 2 hours. One thing happened and it stirred so much emotions in me. Just the for record, my brother is NOT a disappointment ok. He is the ONLY realest thing to me in this fucked up family. I don't care if my parents are divorced, or that my father is gone, or that my mum used to attempted commiting suicide in front of me when I was merely 12, or that my brother intended to kill my mum with a fucking knife. I DON'T CARE IF ALL THIS HURTS ME AND BECAUSE IT ALREADY DOES PLS SOMEONE FIND ME AND SAVE ME. I feel like I'm the oldest around here trying to prevent them from killing each other. So many bad memories I thought I'd forgotten. Yet it haunts me. It still haunts me.
I thought this was gna be the best b'day week. I thought. But I thought wrong.
“I used to think I was the strangest person in the world but then I thought there are so many people in the world, there must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do. I would imagine her, and imagine that she must be out there thinking of me too. Well, I hope that if you are out there and read this and know that, yes, it's true I'm here, and I'm just as strange as you.”
“This is how you do it: you sit down at the keyboard and you put one word after another until it's done. It's that easy, and that hard.”